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Thursday, December 17th, 2009
12:29 pm	It is pretty much definitely Hal's alternator. Getting a new one most likely today. Also, Josh's plane lands right around now. I'll go get him after he's hung out with his Dad for awhile [since they haven't seen each other since summer, partly since last time he visited he did not actually tell him he was back]. Tentative plan for the rest of the day in no particular order: alternator, food, poking at cats, beverages from work, cuddling while watching movies. Today will be good. /melis (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
12:33 am	I'm still all squashy! More, in fact. Also, I might have gotten the top grade in the class for the second six-week grading period [we have six total for the whole year]. While I am neither a perfectionist nor hypercompetitive when it comes to school, there is some scholarship money in play at the end of the year for uncrappy students. And everyone likes free money. And as it stands, with a third of the year out of the way, I may be in the running. I won't be devastated if it doesn't happen, but who complains about free money? Hal's alternator maaaaaay have taken a dump. Further testing to be performed tomorrow. As it stands, the only symptom is a battery light. I watched a youtube video of the action sequences from Equilibrium, leading to the following exchange: Me: you probably saw equilibrium right? Josh: yes! Josh: gun kata lol Josh: yes Me: i finally watched a montagey thing of the fight scenes Me: and.. what? Me: like the part Me: where hes playing whack-a-mole with the gun butts on the guys helmets Me: they have him SURROUNDED Me: why dont they just shoot him Josh: haha yeah. Me: i mean, hes hitting them Me: but its not like theyre going to be super stunned by the force of the blow Me: because, HELMETS Me: or or Me: when the two guys have the rifles pointed at his head and he flips them around Me: WHY WERENT THEY GRIPPING THEM Josh: its christian bale. Josh: he hits really hard! And as of about a half hour ago, it is Tuesday. Tomorrow is Wednesday and the day after is Thursday, which is noteworthy for being the day Josh gets back. We'll see how we make it work; he will likely be here much of the time, and currently Squishy isn't exactly running reliably. We'll figure something out. I have already warned him I may attempt to drag him along on lobby closes at work; they're my shortest shifts and I can make him help me clean [score!]. /melis (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 2nd, 2009
7:00 am	Go Evan! Kick some ass. Also I feel all out-of-the-loop; I had no idea they were mayoring him. Explains why he was too busy to make Thanksgiving. :) /melis (Comment on this)
Friday, November 27th, 2009
4:10 pm	New achievement in life! I locked myself out of the house while taking out the trash. In my PJs, so no phone. In the rain. While Chris and Kelly were both at work. Yeah I am just THAT AWESOME. I borrowed a neighbor's phone [good thing I have no dignity] and Dad was conveniently at his mom's a couple miles away so he was over to let me back in pretty quickly. Maybe this is the universe's way of telling me I should've gone to Arizona this weekend like we were thinking. Right now I am eating an enormous Thanksgiving leftover late lunch. We had a 20-pound turkey AND a 17-pound prime rib last night. Plus appetizers, two kinds of potatoes, cranberry sauce, mushrooms, string beans, stuffing, and six kinds of dessert. Whooooole lotta food. There was supposed to be garlic bread too but due to a complication it got stuck in the oven [yeah, really]. My family sure knows how to throw an epic Thanksgiving. Josh will be back in just under three weeks. /melis (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 4th, 2009
1:20 pm	I eat too much and it is delicious. Josh went back to Arizona on Monday; he'll be back for about a month in six-ish weeks for winter break. While he was here we did traditional Halloween things [which I have not done in something like fifteen years; carving pumpkins and dressing up and trick-or-treating] and puttered around and ate and watched movies and saw him mom and played with cars and had fun. He was getting paperwork together to try to transfer to SJSU next year because let's face it, home is better than Arizona, but he found out yesterday that due to the major cuts they're making it isn't going to happen. He might have sort of semi-accidentally told me he loves me while he was drunk. /melis (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
9:05 pm	He was one of Josh's friends. They weren't extremely close but they were teammates; it's hitting him progressively harder as it sinks in. He tells me not to worry about him so much but I know it's rough. I'm glad he's back soon. I was already glad he's back soon, but yeah. I'm glad he's back soon. /melis (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 11th, 2009
11:40 pm	Mike has been getting.. Increasingly insecure, I guess is the best way to put it; it's a little weird. I still haven't seen him again [hopefully soon] which might not help. His girlfriend took some time off from work so he's pretty much been always home with her and therefore having to deal with her for extended periods of time and I can't figure out if that's the root of his mini-crisis about where he stands with me, or if it's more rooted in this thing with Josh, or the fact that we haven't seen each other in awhile [which almost never happens], or some confluence of these factors.. He's starting to feel like the Other Guy and sort of thrown over, and from a purely emotional standpoint I guess I see how it could fit, but from a more analytical standpoint it's strange seeing as he's the one who's been in a serious relationship for basically ever and I'm just having some ambiguous open-ended enjoyable thing. I just need to talk to him again, I think. And actually ask. I can't figure out how I turned into the kind of person who has Guy Drama. /melis (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 8th, 2009
9:43 pm	So I was closing at work last night when the power went out. Apparently a tree fell and took out a power line; it was a few hours before PG&E got the electricity back up so we just locked the doors and closed up with a bunch of flashlights. Obviously we couldn't do anything that needed power, but I old-school three-sink-washed Every. Single. Dish. I think we did a decent job getting things set all things considered. It was weird. But hey, something new and different. Also makes me appreciate the fact that I don't work at an Amish coffee shop. I need to order my tools. Like, really soon. My teacher told me he'll fill me in about entry-level positions as they hear about them. If it doesn't pan out and I start getting impatient, the Sears right around the corner from my house apparently needs service writers. The pay is better than Starbucks [hourly is already higher and I believe there's some commission involved too], it's super close, hours would be less crappy.. I'm keeping it in mind. I'd go for it now but I'm hesitant to try to start a new job knowing that I'd bail on it for a better new job in an instant if the opportunity arises. I love my cats but sometimes I get lonely at night. I didn't used to. It kind of sucks. I haven't seen Mike in a few weeks; I'm always busy and with school early in the mornings we can't really hang out at night like before. Josh is back three weeks from tomorrow; I'm glad but it will also kind of suck when he's gone again. /melis (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
7:29 pm	We have a roommate! A girl for the small room; she moves in Friday. Master is still up for grabs. But hey, one step at a time. Due to said new roommate-ness, I am moving my general hangout base of operations from the living room couch to my Amazing Comfy Bed. I'm pretty sure this will be no big loss. I sent an e-mail and my [admittedly rough] resume to my teacher and my department head soliciting a heads up if they hear about any appropriate positions. At least both of them know who I am now; hopefully neither has developed a horrible impression. Fingers crossed. I eat too much. And smoke too much. And it's delicious. /melis (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 27th, 2009
2:44 pm	So I survived my first week of school. General lack of death, apparently sort of. There's another chick in my track we didn't know before because she got in on high school ROP points [she's only 18], so there are FOUR WHOLE GIRLS in the program this year. It turns out I went to junior high with one of the repeaters. We didn't know each other very well but it was a small school so there was awareness; from what I remember of her back in the day I'm surprised at how she ended up, but she would probably say exactly the same thing about me. Probably buying tools this week. I am going to be soooo broke. I also need to start trying to track down a new job; I think I'm going to send an e-mail to my teacher and the program head just giving them a heads-up that I'm looking, so if they hear about anything that fits hopefully they can steer me in the right direction. And speaking of work, today was the first not-shitty workday I have had in a week. You know those days when everything is just.. Good? Yeah, it was definitely not one of those. But not shitty. I made it through my whole shift without feeling like I was going to cry while punching everyone in the face, so it's a marked improvement. Yeah I need a new job. Josh booked his flights to come visit at the end of October. I am definitely looking forward to seeing him again. Hopefully it won't be weird. My cats are awesome. /melis (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
3:24 am	I have a laptop! It's all shiny and laptoppy and functional.. I think it's a she. Soon she will have a name. I've been swimming a few times. Apparently I still remember how. Also, it's still awesome. And conveniently technically a form of working out. Day program orientation is Thursday and my first real day of classes is the following Tuesday. I am going to be a real, full-time student. Aaaack. When school kicks in I will also begin my hunt for a new job. Hopefully it works out. Callie broke her baby fang. Instead of five fangs she now has about four and a third. I'm pretty sure I need to take her to the vet to get it extracted because yeah, broken tooth. My poooor puffy cat. Kimmi and Brian and I went dress shopping last week. Bridesmaids' dresses are ordered; I have a little room to expand by June just in case, because the rest of me fit into a smaller size but my boobs did not. My backup plan in case of overexpansion involves the fact that I do technically own multiple functional steel-boned corsets, so I can make myself fit. HaHA! Things I want, in no particular order: a better job, less body fat, increased mental stability, motivation, Josh to be home from Arizona. And, on a whim, I have a new default icon. Apparently it was time for a change. /melis (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 3rd, 2009
5:47 pm	I have three days off from work, then I work Labor Day [time and a half!], then I have another day off, then I work Wednesday and then I have another two days off. SCORE. I'd like to attempt to swim at some point hopefully now that my parents are in the condos and I again have rational access to the Awesome Pool. Krystle is interested in coming too, assuming we have time at the same time. I want a new guitar. I am attached to my old guitar but it's big for me; I'd like a smaller guitar, still steel-string acoustic, and hopefully less crappy than my current guitar but perhaps equally crappy since I am poor and even selling or trading in my old guitar will not exactly mitigate that circumstance. I went to The Starving Musician yesterday [it's quite close to the new house] and fiddled with a few guitars semi in my price range; I was rather fond of one, though it's nylon instead of steel, but it had a good resonance despite the size and though not used it wasn't horrifically priced. They have a lot of turnover in their stock, especially in used instruments, so I'm reasonably confident eventually I will find The Perfect One. And oh my god barre chords were SO MUCH EASIER on the smaller guitar. And I've been attempting to learn to palm mute which I'm sure would also be easier since perhaps my hand would be big enough to actually apply even pressure to all strings at once while also picking. Yeah. I had this idea awhile ago and managed to put it on hold, but it seems to be back with a vengeance. Josh may be coming back to visit around the end of October rather than the originally-planned Thanksgiving long weekend. If he cuts a couple classes he could be home for basically the same length of time anyway, and tickets are cheaper during the not-holiday. Seeing as October is sooner than November, at this point in time it doesn't exactly sound like a horrible idea. I would certainly like to see him again and him visiting sooner accomplishes that in a significantly less committed sort of way than me going out to Arizona. /melis (Comment on this)
Monday, August 31st, 2009
11:26 pm	So I do miss Josh. More than I expected. Which may sound misleading, technically. I don't miss him more intensely than I expected: generally when it's there it just kind of nags; it's only occasionally enough to really hit me hard. But I miss him more frequently than I expected. A lot of little things remind me of him. Meanwhile it has not been even two weeks since he left yet. We talked about this; I figured the time between now and Thanksgiving would fly right by, but he never did. So far he seems more correct than me to both of us. My idea of the pacing might change after De Anza gets back in, but his school started the day after he flew out so it's probably going about as fast as it will on his end. We have touched on the idea of me coming out to visit. On the one hand we could have a lot of fun; on the other it implies a level of commitment I doubt either of are exactly comfortable with yet. But we're talking a lot, basically every day either texting or online or on the phone. And again, it hasn't even been two weeks. Thanksgiving is, I am increasingly aware, still rather far away. We'll see what happens in the interim. /melis (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 29th, 2009
2:51 pm	It feels like much longer than a week and a half-ish since we moved. Things are settling down; the house is less of a mess now, I got my bed [AND IT'S AMAZING], people have come around to see the house, yadda yadda. We still need housemates [working on it], but one thing that may help on the money front is due to a possible screwup on the landlord's part our rent might go down. If it turns out to be true I'll post more about it then. For now Chris and I are keeping our fingers crossed. Settling is good. Since the move is over drama has been at a relative minimum. I'm almost itchy for school to finally just start so a) I can get it over with and b) I can start the real hunt for a better job. Mostly the last part. Though David has been informed multiple times of the fact that I will probably be leaving the company soon, he just seems to be ignoring the possibility. I'm pretty sure he's just telling himself it won't actually happen. But whatever, it's not my problem if he finds himself up a creek when his second-hardest-working barista leaves right before the holidays; I have definitely warned him enough. My weight is slowly coming back down. I think the reduced stress helps. Not to mention the lack of Josh's influence expressed in the form of enormous pans of home-cooked pasta. Not to say I don't miss his influence expressed in the form of enormous pans of home-cooked pasta, but its absence is decidedly better for my waistline. Chris has been learning to cook and also produces enormous pans of home-cooked pasta, but apparently I'm better at abstaining from overlarge portions when they aren't presented by an enthusiastic studly blonde boy who cooks shirtless while I watch. Someday soon I will have a laptop of my own. Until then, stealing Chris' seems to work. /melis (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
11:06 pm	So we are basically moved in. All the stuff is here though a lot of it is still kind of a mess; today was Ikea and Target day so hopefully things will be in place soon [I'm shooting for by Tuesday since I'm off work Monday]. We brought the cats over a couple nights ago. Callie immediately got to exploring and claiming the whole house for herself. Smudge sniffed around a little and spent the next two days under my blanket on the couch, but now she's out and about so I think she's getting comfortable. Things have been kind of kee-razy. I did get to watch three white trash guys [namely Josh and his brothers] wrestle a 65" 343 pound rear-projection teevee out of a house and into a pickup and out of a pickup and into a garage, which was quite fun. I now look forward to when they will attempt to wrestle it up a set of stairs and around a corner and through a doorway. But I'll have to wait until at least Thanksgiving since Josh is back in Arizona for school. I took him to the airport Wednesday morning. It wasn't so bad, but I also didn't have much time to think about it since I then went home, napped a little extra [his flight was 6.50], headed to work, and immediately after we continued to move. He'd helped us with the big furniture the day before, but there will still plenty to do; it's only really slowing down now. It would seem I was starting to get used to having him around. Not so much that I miss him tremendously, but enough that yeah I do miss having him around. We're still talking a lot, of course. His laptop went blooey and mine hasn't arrived yet [I'm borrowing Chris' for internet] so not so much online, but we just renewed our family cell plan with unlimited texting so there's plenty of that, plus using the phone as an actual phone. This is strange and unfamiliar to me: a semi-traditional-ish relationship. Also, Ivan decided to pass on the master bedroom in favor of trying to save up to buy a place of his own [and I can't exactly blame him], but we had the backup plan of trying to rent it to Nick and Boris to split. They'd considered splitting a smaller bedroom but we realized we couldn't do four people on one and a half bathrooms. However, they can totally split the master bedroom and master bath, and we would have five people sharing the expenses instead of four, and apparently Nick knows how to cook. So hopefully this works out. Even if it doesn't the house is awesome so I'm sure we could find people through craigslist, but I'd rather go in with people I know. However, if they ARE in, the last bedroom rent would be lower and one of my [awesomer] co-workers may be able to afford it too, which would also not be so terrible. But anyhow. We shall see what happens. And Josh will be back for Thanksgiving, which is not tremendously far away. And then for a month over the holidays too. Knowing my track record, by the end of that I might be sick of him already. Heh. /melis (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
6:51 pm	I will not be homeless after all! Chris and I joined forces since we were in the same boat, and we found a kickass yet surprisingly cheap four bedroom house in Sunnyvale on craigslist. We started working on getting it before anyone else could and began scouting for housemates. As of yesterday we had it officially locked up, and we will start to move in a week. Yeah a week. Working on the packing and all that jazz. Instead of autocross, Josh and I opted for many much sex Saturday night and sleeping waaaaaay in and then more sex Sunday. A good choice, all in all. I ended up going to Ivan and Secondary Mike's on Sunday night to watch the fights with the guys, and also to discuss a proposition with Ivan. Worked out well apparently since he is 99% sure he is going to be renting the house with us, contingent on it not scaring the crap out of him when he sees it in person for the first time tomorrow. He's in for the master bedroom and exclusive rights to the master bathroom, plus a garage spot. Which is awesome because that means he will be shouldering a somewhat disproportionate amount of the rent, but he can afford it and we are poor so everyone wins. Still on the hunt for one more housemate, but with an awesome place like that it shouldn't be too hard to find someone willing and not too shitty. And now, back to packing. /melis (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 7th, 2009
1:06 am	I AM DONE WITH EDUCATIONAL SCHOOL. BWAAAAAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Yeah. Definitely passed math, almost definitely passed English. Official grades aren't in but I am not concerned about either. Which is quite rare for me so it might actually be indicative. Also, I might be homeless in three and a half weeks or so. Closing is tomorrow and my theoretical place to live just fell through [oops]. So I've been wandering craigslist; there are some very promising listings, some of them even entirely within my projected means. Others are slightly outside but possibly REALLY awesome and therefore maybe worth the stretch [some of them even involve living without potentially shady roommates], especially since my income will [theoretically hopefully] grow into a more comfortable fit. I would feel more confident if I knew exactly how my employment in the coming year is going to pan out. My highest priority is that my cats have to come with me seeing as they are my cats and they have no place else to go; fortunately, it seems to be easier to find something cat-friendly than dog-friendly. And though I would rather not rely on help, Mom and Dad are entirely willing, of course, to provide it additionally as needed. And since the house is selling, they also definitely possess the means. Josh is quite Josh. I stayed over again last night; we tried to watch a movie but I kept nodding off [oops]. Breakfast in the morning then I went to work, but since it was a long shift he came by with food for my lunchbreak [pre-arranged] and we hung out in Squishy until I had to head back in. He'll probably stay here on the couch with me tomorrow night because Dad and Chris and I are moving the dining room table to my aunt's house in the East Bay so we will utilize his studly musckles to assist with the lifting. More excitingly, we will also be leaving the Ruf at her place so I GET TO DRIVE IT UP. And he gets to passenger, so he is simultaneously excited and scared. And excited. Yaaaay turbo car. I may well be going with him and Nick and Boris and miscellaneous other people [including possibly Josh's mom] to an autocross thing on Sunday. We shall see. The idea is awfully tempting. /melis (Comment on this)
Monday, August 3rd, 2009
3:54 pm	Projected schedule: REMAINS OF MONDAY 1600: finish last assigned math section of the class 1730: go scope out condo and have dinner with family 2000 OR WHENEVER: relax then sleep TUESDAY 0500-1130: work 1200: watch Josh cook lunch in jeans and an apron; miscellaneous debauchery 1730: shrink 1900: short English blurb and English final essay [both on the same topic] 2300 OR SO HOPEFULLY: sleep WEDNESDAY 0645-1200: work 1330-1815: study for math final 1900-2030: math final 2100: BE DONE WITH 'REAL' 'EDUCATIONAL' CLASSES FOR THE REST OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. THE END IS IN SIGHT. MUAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. /melis (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 2nd, 2009
11:39 pm	Things have been crazy busy but rather excellent. Thursday I headed over to Josh's after work; he made lunch [burgers and fries] and got me jackstands for my birthday! <3 And yeah I sort of finally slept with someone younger than thirty. Skipped an entire decade, in fact. Oops. Me = old and dirty. Friday was my birthday; I worked a short shift in the morning [and got sung at by a random assortment of regulars], went for frozen yogurt with Steph in the afternoon, and had dinner with Mom and Chris [Dad was in Sacramento for a conference]. Just before dinner I heard from Mike that we could do his engine swap the next day at Jeremy's as long as we got everything we need. Spent some time negotiating borrowing Nick's hoist until we figured things out, so after dinner I headed over to Nick's to hang out with him and Josh and meet Boris and Maria and Boris' new e36 M3 [mmmm] and pick up the hoist. The bunch of us [sans Boris] headed over to Ivan's to deliver it and move the engine out of the side yard. After eventual delivery of people and cars to their respective places, got home at 1-something in the morning. Oh and at some point in the middle of all that I bought a mattress [someday it will arrive]. Saturday morning at 5-something after a few hours of sleep I woke up and headed back to Ivan's to meet up with JP and his van and Mike to get the engine to San Carlos. Got everything carted over and settled around 8 and Mike and I started working. Eventually Jeremy showed up too, which was not so bad seeing as he and Mike had both done a few swaps into the same cars [including getting that same exact engine into Jeremy's car when he first got it] and I a) had never done one and b) work mostly on imports. At about 8.45 at night I had to head home because I still hadn't done my English midterm and it was due at 11.30PM; the car was running by then and later that night I got a message from Mike saying he got back home just fine. Success! After the midterm I took a quick shower then headed over to pick up Josh so we could drop the hoist off at his mom's, then we headed back to his dad's place. We popped in a movie but both fell asleep about ten minutes in. Oops. Woke up this morning to a hot shirtless boy bearing breakfast [eggs and toast]. Distractions, shall we say, led to food not actually being consumed until it was already cold, but.. Yeah, definitely worthwhile. I headed back home and changed and went to work; he dropped by at the end of my shift and we ran a few random errands around the shopping center then went back to our respective places. Michelle is in town with Shaylana and the dogs this week, so we had a big extended family dinner. Shayla is so much bigger than last time they were here even though it hasn't been long; she seems more like a miniature person already too. I am generally unfamiliar with the growth/maturity curve of infants, but it's probably not the worst sign. Anyway, lots of family, lots of food, good times. Now I'm home and relaxing a little; tomorrow I'm off from Starbucks but will probably be doing a lot of random schoolwork. Next week is the last week of the quarter [yaaaay] so not crapping out and failing everything right at the end might be a good choice. In the evening we'll probably go scope out the condo since Mom and Dad will likely be moving there soon, then we'll all get dinner and I will probably sleep right after since I open on Tuesday. Ew. Josh is lobbying for me to come over for another lunch afterwards; he may well get his way. Someday I'll have an actual relaxing day; more has happened in the past month or so than generally happens around me in a year. Perhaps it'll slow down next week when school is done. And after I move. But hey, at least it's generally been the good kind of busy. /melis (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 28th, 2009
7:04 pm	So there is this boy. And I know I use the term boy not infrequently but he is actually a BOY. Like, nineteen. Freshly nineteen. Barely not barely legal nineteen. We met through a mutual friend and have been hanging out increasing amounts. He is fun and we enjoy each other and oh lard does he ever not look nineteen, especially below the neck. He leaves to go back to school in about a month seeing as he is nineteen [NINE-TEEN people] but I may have found me a late summer fling. He's quite endearing in an awkward puppy sort of way, and very nineteen, and kisses like I imagine teenage boys probably generally do but it's hard for me to judge exactly seeing as before him I have kissed teenage boys twice: at fourteen and seventeen. It's been awhile. But hey, nineteen, probably trainable, technically already learning. But he's awfully good-looking and triangular and he tries SO HARD in that endearing awkward puppy way and I can probably adjust to feeling like a dirty old woman. He's no Mike but we get along; we can certainly pass the time. Nineteen. Ugh. This should not be so weird to me because I go older all the time, but I am really not used to being the dirty old half in the equation. Niiiineteeeeeen. /melis [who is definitely no longer nineteen] (9 Comments |Comment on this)